...surrendering isn't supposed to be hard, right? or maybe it depends on the battle. or the personality of the fighter.
my bet is on both.
I
chose to surrender a battle that has been beating me since I retired and started knitting "professionally" (please excuse the quotation marks - my husband thinks it's a hobby, but it pays for my yarn, so I think it's more than that). key point here is that knitting is now the only thing I really
do. yes, I still meet friends for coffee, I keep house, I walk my dog, I teach, I read, I study, ... but really... most of that takes a back seat to the knitting. it's certainly the only thing I do - besides blogging and photography - that
creates something that lasts outside of me. so I take it seriously. and that's my personality.
I like to take things seriously. I like to set stretch goals and meet them (I taught a seminar once in my former life that "exceeding" stretch goals meant you hadn't set the goals right ... simply meeting a stretch goal is a victory).
so there we have the perfect storm to setup this battle.
and in my first month, I've been defeated.
but I've learned.
I almost hate to revisit the campaign, but maybe I'll learn more from it if I do!
remember
september 2? a few days before a 3-day weekend (when I wasn't working or teaching), a week before my planned beach trip, and a month off from teaching two of my classes. knitting time seemed abundant. I was excited about the projects. I could do anything!
funny, when I
posted on september 16 about my surrender, I didn't
actually surrender any of those earlier deadlines. in my head I was still planning to finish a shawl and two sweaters and maybe let the vest slide to october. really?!
yes really?! what was I thinking! I was setting myself up to fail. and I don't like that. that's why I'm surrendering the battle. I said it. and I wrote it. but I didn't
do it.

I worked like crazy to finish the
crocus shawl so I could share it with my students (that worked, they're excited about the pattern and two of them have started it).

now I'm working like crazy to finish the nantucket vest (so I can start the next sweater). I'm close, but really, I have at least a day's more work to do.
and now I have birthday and holiday knitting to start. I refuse to let those projects become part of my battle this year. over the last few days, I've been re-working the "deadlines" in my head. trying to be realistic about how much knitting time I really have and how much knitting I get done.
my new rule of thumb is about 75 yds of yarn a day. more if it's straight stockinette or heavier yarn. and less is if it's not. that means I can knit about 2,250 yards a month.
so for october, I'm going to:
- finish nantucket - this is mostly finishing now, not knitting, but say 200 yds
- start & finish sara's birthday gift - TBD
- start & finish creature comforts - 1,000 yds
- start & finish the sunflower shawl - 450 yds
- start katie's birthday gift - TBD
I think these goals are realistic, and depending on the gifts, maybe even a stretch. not that I'm looking for stretch this month. I'm just hoping to get back to a saner place.
do you set time goals for your knitting? if so, does it work?